(I should say I’m safe, just lonely.)

No idea for whom, what or even why. Maybe for someone to feel less alone. But for me oestrogen has helped be less depressed on average. Not this week. It has been a lot, without anything specific being much. Work went okay, if I were to recall other things besides work I’m sure they went okay too.

But I felt unable to connect to others or even myself, which is a big ongoing problem for me. I have tried a lot of what life has on offer and it seems like programming is the only thing marginally enjoyable, but sometimes I get tired and burnt out from it.